it's coming...

finally,one more paper left...

started to flashback how it all started...

in flight with tonnes of stuffs for college...eager to see how would it be there

i'm there...d whole week with MMS, where friendships started to pop its darling bud

over time it blooms...in friendship: ups n downs, starting n ending, hating n reconciling, fitting in.....

tonnes of stresses had been dealt with...classes, buses, rushes, finances, procrastinations...it's all there

and love...found one out of nowhere...

lots of time spent together..at first it's just a mere crush or maybe u can say it as a friendship...

going out together, having lunch together...seeing each other every single day...

at the moment, i didn't even know what to call it...is there something else in both of these raging heart, to find the real feelings to share with each other?.or is it just to have something to fill in ur time with?.idk.

on the night of 28th January 2010, it's finally happening.....

u held my hands, saying that "i wanna be with u,so badly...but i'm afraid."

yes, i'm afraid too...and the fear is slowly coming to the max..

it's already 18th March, n we're nearly 2months in 10days time..

n i'm leaving u,baby....

i'm afraid that i'm going to have my flight tickets back to Miri on d 4th of April...

which is in 2 weeks, 4 days...and it's slowly decreasing

it felt like just yesterday i met u and u held my hand for the first time...

it's d most wonderful feeling ever since a year ago, where my love for a guy was just a fad...

"i loved you before, but i love u no more"...

please wait for me,sayang...

i'd do anything to come back for you, and i will...

just hold on to me tightly, like u'll ever see me again...

whenever i think of the amount of time that is left for us, i cried...

how am i going to live without you?.

i know we're going to make this work for the both of us...

and i hope that you can just bear with me..

sayang, i love you so much...

please...i'm begging you..wait for me

look me in d eyes and mean it, that you will and always think of me and how we used to be...

i hate how much i love u...and i hate how much i need you

"i'll give my all to have just one more nite with u...i'll risk my life to feel ur body next to mine...cuz i can't go on,living in d memories over time...i'll give my all for ur love tonite..." ♥'