Monday, December 6, 2010

KL Motor Show 2010

it was awesome~~~!.
(with a big grinny face, just like this)

(hihihi....this is just my beloved darling busuk ngee~)

everything is just full of awesomeness!..
even the models for the cars seem like famous models
maybe i saw some in FHM or somethg?.
but, let's just focus on the cars.. :D

the cars are awesome~!!
(awesomeness has just starting to fill this post)
because it is full of awesomeness~!! hi3

okay okay,be cool...ehem2

so, the cars are full with unexpectedness
it is impressive that our beloved country's PROTON can produce cars like this...

(Proton EMAS - hybrid)

or like this...

(Proton Tuah - comes with the other brothers too!)

my jaw was half-dropped when I entered the first hall
it was on a Sunday, so it is good to expect lots of people and yeah,
we got stuck in traffic jam for about 2hours
but at least I think it's kinda worth it :)

so i suggest everyone should go
although this might be a little (or a lot) more 'ordinary' for some people (yg tak heran bout cool expensive cars just bcoz they got one (or lots) of these at home and it's just a total waste of time going to the crowded PWTC while their house looks just like an exhibition like this)
but it is totally awesome,with cool tokens and free stuffs too!.. :D

it's just too bad that i couldn't go with my adib busuk
he said that he would wait for me to go back to JB first then go to the exhibition,just bcoz he doesn't want me to be jealous.. (hot,skinny n sexy girls,remember?)
whatever :|
he finally bought the december issue of FHM just now
and again, whatever :|
i hope u know what to do, i trust u :|

p/s: i got car sick ;P

Tuesday, November 30, 2010

great moments

and here i am
still awake at 2a.m. (quite early in nocturnal people's world)
trying to update my blog
quite tired but still okay
after the crazy, hectic weekend of the month :|

finally, the asasian's public speaking competition is O.V.E.R
it went well,thanks to the organizing team and participants and bla bla blaa~..

one of the most interesting story of the year: a visit to Tangkak,my beloved adib's grandparent place..there was a khatan kenduri made for adib's cousins who are going to be grab n cut on the............(fill in d blanks) :D kesian dorg haha
there was me, adib, paeh & kerak..
initially, we attended ikki's wedding in muar..right after visiting ikki n in,we went to adib's tok mak's home in tangkak,which was filled with relatives coming for the kenduri

so, yeah...i've met the family :O
huhu scaryyy~
but it was fun, and i'm glad that adib introduced me to his wonderful family
as usual,some 'interviews' from the family members especially tok mak n adib's mom,just asking the usual stuff..
i freaked out a bit but i like it at the same time
i love u,busuk

seriously, i think that my writing skills and organization (for blogs) are slowly getting weirder and perhaps incorrect..or odd O____o
idk why,maybe i just blankly wrote stuffs coming or passing through my mind..
i'm still quite overwhelmed by the things i did n encounter during the whole weekend, so i might need some time to calm myself down...
love,affection,n cuddles may help...
sayang,i want u here with me right now :'|

still doesn't know when i'm going back to JB
let's just let things smooth down and fall into their places later
i'm too tired (mentally) to make any decisions right now that might change my routine and environment..this is what happens when u travel n move here n there a lot most of the time..i need a holiday :|
holiday without moving from my seat,can ah??.

so damn bored..
i need ideas though for my downloads moment..
i need songs,i need to update my quite ancient playlist

oh yeah, on the 30th November 2010 (today lah) is my beloved adib busuk's graduation day!..i'm so proud of u,syg

let's make our life more meaningful with the people we love and with those who's to short to be alone :)

Monday, November 15, 2010


do people (women especially) love to have and maybe make up an imaginary problems to worry about?.
i know sometimes i do..

do women need love and attention while guys need space and less concern on small things that matter to women?.
no comment.

do women need more and more clothes each time the trend changes now and then while guys can shop for tshirts and jeans only once a year?.
women make the world prettier with more varieties???

do we need to be skinny to feel good and confident?.
because people care and pay soo damn much attention on bulgy stomach and such

you can't change yourself for to be better?.
urmmm~can't answer that,i simply don't know :)

p/s: super damn bored :|

in a cage

bird cage...
birdy birdy birdy :D

hoo yeahh~ today joe+me took a trip to KL Bird Park, the largest free-flight walk-in bird park in the cool is that??.

the pamphlet says:
"once you step into the entrance gate, it is as if you are stepping into a huge bird cage..."
oh yes,it does feel like is home for nearly 3000 birds with different species from all around the world
it smells like poo all the time but the experience we had worth a lot. :D

and yeah,i also fed the cutesy parrots!..some of them are perves by the way...they landed on the places they shouldn't land...

what else??.oh yeah, some male peacocks followed (stalked) us...maybe it's because i'm wearing a pair of peacock feather earrings..hahahaha
it may be insulting to them, but hey, they should know that it's trendy and people are wearing and selling them everywhere..
no offence, pretty peacocks :)

after the trip, we went to The has been a while since the last time we went there together...i kinda love the's a bit small but sometimes it's better than huge malls with lots of places to cover..
and yeah, joe bought a new mobile phone - Nokia E5
loovee the phone..5mp camera,wifi,gps,and some other cool features :)

kinda sad...tomorrow i'm going back to JB for a week, will come back here at the,i will not be seeing joe for a while...after a week here,we'll not be seeing each other for another month,which is till end of the year...
i wish i wish i wish next year joe's not going to be too far away from here...but if there's no other choice,i have to let go :'(

i'm gonna miss u so much, wuv u :')

p/s: i know my post kinda lame this time, but, idk..maybe i'm just too busy on my newly signed up twitter n tumblr account :D

Wednesday, September 8, 2010

travel of the year

okay...on d last post i said that i'm going to take the bus from S.A to J.B...
instead, my mom called me early in the morning, asking whether I've packed or not and she's planning to go down to S.A on that very day to pick me up
hurmmm~...there it goes, rm38 bus ticket :|

so...when my mom came, i brought her to PAS to go and look for another baju raya for me (i already bought a turquoise-colored modern baju kurung but i want another one, just a simple baju kurung will do)
but i didn't found one bcoz it is too hard for me to find the one that the sleeves can actually reach my, we spent the money on serunding, tudung, and food... :D

i reached JB on Saturday, and the next day was shopping day...spent most of the day looking for my baju kurung...and then at last, i found's kinda gorgeous - it's leopard-printed, black and white, chiffon, just my size, simple and it's cheap!.love it so much :D

and my mom also bought me a brand new phone - CSL Blueberry-a 9500 (and it's red!)
really love it...thanx mom!. :DD

i bought so much stuff, i can't recall...
still waiting for PTPTN to bank in the money (hurry!)
huhh~...some more stuff to go on my shopping list

today is Tuesday and i just reached home in Sarawak...
tomorrow will be a long, long day as we will go to Lawas by car :O
i got the government warrant ticket (claimed by my mom) and will be able to get 2 free tickets each year (two-way) till i reach 21 :D
my mom got me an air asia flight...with this ticket, i was given 20kg free cargo-luggage (i NEVER travel lightly), express boarding, free meals and most important is - the ticket itself was totally free!..i really do love free stuff.. :)
on board, i broke my fast at least 4000 feet above somewhere in the middle of the South China's really great, they gave me nasi briyani bukhara(?), kit-kat, Spritzer, fresh orange juice and crackers..yummy~! :D

have fun, people! lots!. :D

p/s: so far, so good...just don't mess up no more :)

Friday, September 3, 2010

hari raya

the EID is exactly 1 week away...YEAYAHOO~!!!
i'm happy just because i'm going to celebrate the eid at my beloved kampung - without those people who are worthless to talk about

so...i've bought a baju kurung moden for myself - in my new fave colour TURQUOISE
okay, quite happy bout's not really the one i'm looking for but it is good enough, so.......hurmm

i'm in my room @ kolej mawar, ALONE :'(
quite sad bout my condition right now but what to do...
it's my fault that i bought the ticket back to JB dated on the 5th..
my mom had reminded me to buy the one on the 4th but, idk what i was thinking at that moment...
oh yes, i thought that my PTPTIPU money would be in before raya, so i thought that if i spend more time here, i could at least spend it on stuff to bring back home for, the only reason that is making me miserable right now is the fact that the money is not here yet...
thus, as they money, no talk :| haha, yeah right

during break fast, i went out with my beloved Joe busuk...we went out to eat together as for today might be the last day we could go out and buka puasa together, then it's gonna be two weeks to go for our next meeting...
two weeks are quite long enough for me to get cranky and a bit insecure till Joe can hear me whine at least everyday :D i love whining

so, it's gonna be tomorrow (plan: emptiness), and then a long and lonely Sunday (bus at 5pm) and expecting to arrive at JB at night, maybe around 10p.m...then it's gonna be an outing day, perhaps, on Monday with Nad in the morning and with Mom at night...then on Tuesday at 5pm would be my flight back to Miri, expecting to land on Borneo land 2hours and 30minutes later...on the next day, which is on the 8th, will be travelling again through Brunei and Limbang to reach Lawas, my kampung...till then, just hope that i would survive and be alive in the end of this loneliness of mine...

i hope i got good movies to watch...

oh yeah, tomorrow can be a bit of shopping-raya-day and laundry day...

and please please please, give me the chance to spend some time with Joe busuk on this Sunday before i get on the bus...aminnn~
i'm gonna miss u damn much, busuk :'(

p/s: be safe, be sure, don't contemplate anymore, try to have fun in complete loneliness :)

Friday, August 27, 2010

another one

so, here's another one...
post :|

okay, this week has been really (or quite?) productive...cuz i've been busy with PT documents and such...

on MONDAY...
Mdm (Miss) Moon texted me early in the morning that goes somethg like this;
"lit test will be at 1pm at cendana 1&2"... - without mentioning the date
so, i went on texting each and every classmates (29 to be exact) to tell them that lit test will be held today (Monday)...
until i found out that it was actually going to be on the next day - freakin' Tuesday :|
sorry for the wrong info, guys..but seriously, i woke up very lazy and tired and i've been thinking on how the hell am i going to deal with the surat akuan sumpah that i need to issue for PTPTN matter...and texting all 1B students are really tiring, with organizing d phone numbers n stuff...and don't even mention bout the credits i've spent (btw, i took rm5 from the photostate piggy bank t cover the texting charges) :D

this is officially the busiest day for the rest of the let's keep it simple then...
class started at 8.30am till 12.30pm..12.30pm to 1pm was the asasians public speaking competition meeting for sponsorships...1pm literature test...dealing with sir rizal's book and photostating notes + get certification from dr. shireena for PTPTN matters, done at 2.10pm...2.10pm - call Joe to pick me up at the bustop and drive me to Kompleks Sukan (i want to rush, so i'm skipping buses)..2.10 till 2.50pm - sit at bustop, anxiously waiting for Joe who's apparently busy consulting his students in the office (didn't texted me saying he's busy) so, 1 precious hour got wasted at the stupid bustop where pathetic guys with meaningless lives wooing me like they're somekind of hotshots or somethg, ppfftttt~..3pm till 4pm - in process if submitting PT documents, went back to my room right after and get 2hours rest (in sweat) 6pm, get ready to buka puasa at ani sup utara sect 2 with niessa and the gang and after that, we went to the Ethos! meeting together at the faculty..guess when it ended - 11pm...
so, occupied for the whole day (in a rush) with only 2hours of rest...i'm still alive :)

quite a slow day...then class ended at 3pm, saw sheril's message: meeting org. comm. at 6pm...gosh, i've made plans to go out and buka puasa with Joe!..i get to leave early though, so thanx babe.. :)
buka puasa at PKNS with Joe, Ayep and his girl...i had lamb chop - yummy!..then walk around a bit, then we went was really nice, though.. :D

no class at all...lay on bed till 1pm, got tatatertib from kolej (the best part of the day)...then Kesat at 5-7pm...buka puasa a bit late...and now, the whole nite lepak with the girls (nad, atyn) and sleepover at sheril's room (without sheril)

so...........i really don't know what to say
my weekends seem boring, with no plans or whatsoever..
btw, Joe is going to JB for his secondary school's reunion...
note to self: just try to have fun on my own and if Joe is not answering calls or replying msgs during his stay at JB, he's soo gonna get it...gggrrrrr :(

p/s: i'll get insecure if my boyfriend is far away from me...i know, it sucks...I SUCK :|

Friday, August 13, 2010

happy fasting :)

it's the month of the year again...RAMADHAN

yes, i know...time passed by so fast, and Raya is coming soon enough...
i haven't bought the tickets to go back to Miri yet..coz i'm thinking of not going back for Raya this year..still considering, just hope that it's not going to be too late..whatever :| week is 'class test week'..till then, let us use as much as our weekends to study and revise cuz i really wanna score well for this semester :D
the thought of me struggling with grades for the rest of my degree years if i continue to procrastinate a lot like i did during asasi just haunts me real least i want to excel in this one part or stage of my life so that i can live happily on my own without depending so much on anybody else, especially my family...i guess that everybody loves to care so much about themselves rather than caring bout anybody else, so i guess i just need to lead my own life wherever i want it to be with those i love and those who really loves me..

there's so much to, life, disappointment, exhaustion, boredom, friendship, patience, etc.....
but i don't want to end up babbling about it in my blog, i don't like that, so let's just keep those feelings to myself, shall we?. :D

everybody's being cranky..even myself, i don't know why...
if i could, i would want to complain here and there but my time is just too precious to be spent on people who would like/forced to work in a certain profession (especially those who work for customers) who don't know their places and think that they can talk to people who do not, in whatsoever way, annoy or 'carik pasal' to them in such an unideal way...u were supposed to entertain ur customers' curiosity, not to accuse them of doing something that they didn't do and use that as an excuse to not to entertain them...i mean, wtf is that?!.ko ingat ko sorg je yg busy banyak keja??.please, go find something else to do and give me someone who got enough brains/rationality to replace ur job

so i think that's all...just the thought of all the stupid people around me this past few days just makes me even crankier...toodles

p/s: angry + annoyed = don't mess with me

Tuesday, August 10, 2010

bella luna

mystery the moon
a hole in the sky
a supernatural nightlight
so full but often right

a pair of eyes are closing one
a chosen child of golden sun
a marble dog that chases cars to farthest reaches of the beach
and far beyond into the swimming sea of stars

the cosmic fish they love to kiss
they're giving birth to constellations
no reefs and, oh no, reservation
if they should fall, you'd get a wish or dedication

may i suggest you get the best
for nothing less than you and i
let's take a chance in this romance
it's rising over before we lose the lighting

oh bella, bella please
bella, you beautiful luna
oh, bella do what you do...

you are an illuminating anchor
of leads to infinite number
crashing waves and breaking thunder
tiding the ebb and flows of hunger

you're dancing naked there for me
you expose all memory
you make the most of boundary
you're the ghost of royalty
imposing love, you are the king and queen
combining everything
intertwining like a ring
around the finger of a girl
i'm just a singer, you're the world
all i can bring ya' is the language of a lover
bella beautiful, beautiful moona
how you swoon me like no other, oohh...

may i suggest you'd get the best of your wish
may i insist that no contest for little you or smaller i
a larger chance set but all them may lie
on the rise, on the brink of our lives...

bella please...bella you beautiful luna
oh bella, do what you do...
bella beautiful, beautiful moona
how you swoon me like no other

p/s: if Jason Mraz is coming to Malaysia and sing this song, SERIOUSLY I'LL BURST INTO TEARS... :'D
kan best kalau adib busuk mcm jason mraz... :DD

I heart Jason Mraz

I've been listening to Jason Mraz since his album, Mr. A-Z hit singles "The Remedy" and "You & I Both" was released...i love his hit songs soo much but the listeners should REALLY listen to the whole album...there's A LOT MORE than just what u guys have been listening to..

i know that most of us love to listen to only some of his songs but never tried to listen to the whole me, his songs have very deep meaning, sometimes the songs doesn't involve anybody else but himself, about the conflicts within him and much more...i'm taking literature as my minor but i think that i could at least understand most of the literary texts in my class...but listening and immersing myself in Jason Mraz's songs and lyrics gets me thinking for years, trying to figure out the meaning behind all those words in his songs...i won't google or search for other people's perception about the song because i'm so very curious about it till it makes me wanna find it out myself...

one of my fave JM's song is Mr. Curiosity, and it goes like this.....;

hey mr. curiosity
is it true what they've been saying about you?
are you killing me?
you took care of the cat already
and for those who think it's heavy
is it the truth, or is it only gossip?

call it mystery or anything
just as long as you'd call me
i sent the message on, did you get it?
well, i left it
see, this catastrophic event
it wasn't meant to mean no harm
but to think there's nothing wrong is a problem

i'm looking for love this time
sounding hopeful but it's making me cry
love is a mystery
mr. curious...come back to me

mr. waiting, ever patient can't you see?
that i'm the same the way you left me
in a hurry to spellcheck me
and i'm underlined already in envy green and pencil red
and i've forgotten what you've said
will you stop working for the dead and return

mr. curious, well i need some inspiration
it's my birthday and i cannot find no cause for celebration
the scenario is grave but i'll be braver when you save me
from the situation laden with hearsay

i'm looking for love this time
sounding hopeful but it's making me cry
and love is a mystery
mr. curiosity, be mr. please do come and find me

love is blinding when the time is never right
but who am i to beg for difference?
finding love in just an instance
well, i don't mind
at least i've tried
well, i've tried...i've tried.....

it sounds like agony...

but yeah...just look at the lyrics...especially this particular verse talking about mr.waiting and underlined with envy green and pencil red...what was that suppose to mean?.there must be a reason why the color green and red is being used...

in my opinion, this song is all about what is happening within him...all of the 'misters' mentioned are maybe the state of him at some particular situations...obviously, he mentioned about trying to find love but it's making him sad...but why?.maybe it's very confusing to know who is the right one to fall in love to..or maybe he feel so lonely that it's making him cry in trying to find somebody to love and to be loved...there are times when u don't have any boyfriend or girlfriend that it makes u cry..i know it's quite pathetic but right then is when u will recap back all of your past relationships and u'll try to figure out what was your mistake till it could end in such a particular way...
i just think that this song is maybe a monologue of himself but seriously, it hits me like a big yellow bus when trying to figure out the meaning...every time i can come up with assumptions and conclusions of this song, i still think there's something missing in my assumptions...why must he said things like this and that while maybe it could be otherwise???so confusing, so full of curiosity...hmm, maybe that's why the title is mr.curiosity

i've tried asking my friends about this stuff but they never heard of this song, what a waste of such beautiful songs that weren't popularized since 5 years ago :|

there's a lot more, actually...bella luna, forecast, wordplay, life is wonderful....
the songs are about life, love, self-conflicts...and much more
not many singers nowadays that produce such songs anymore
oldies got soul, man......oommppphhh~!. :D

p/s: i love deep, does it makes me deep enough?. :DD

Friday, July 30, 2010

weekends are human rights!.. (especially for students!)

it has been 5 weeks here in UiTM and we only got one weekend free...'s kind of tiring but when there's too much free time, it can be quite boring too
so, to make it perfect, give me a bunch of money and i'll spend it in just a blink of an eye...

ughh....i'm tired, and i don't want to spend my tiring day in my little space of my little room in a small spec of UiTM Shah Alam that is called Kolej Mawar...ouh man, i hope i can get out of that place and go rent a house somewhere near Sect. 17 or somethg...please let this 1st semester pass away as fast as it can :|

today...not much..went out for lunch at Pak Li's Sect. 18 with beloved Adib busuk, Niessa Abd. Azis, Turisaina Tukiman & Farah Sofia a.k.a Che'gu...
i ate Hokkien Kuey Tiaw (which is quite nice) and a glass of barley drink...Adib ate his lunch he brought from home :D

and now i'm at Dedaru Square with Tengku Sheril Amirah Bustaman & Nadhirah Rahman...i have loads of seaweeds, seketul ayam goreng cafe gagak, mocha drink with pearl, and Ayamas Roti Impit wrapper by my side...i ate a lot, yes i do...please help me not to :|

tomorrow we got module to attend to...(it's compulsory, shit!)
to make it more 'easier' for me, Adib busuk almost planned on going to watch 'Despicable Me' on Saturday and he asked me "syg, nak tgk wayang x this saturday??"
i was like, "damn..module!" aaaaaaarrrrggggggggggghhhhhh i hate thisss~!!!!!!!! :'(

i don't care..!on Monday, i'm going to watch that despicable movie ANYHOW possible and i'm dragging Adib along.......byk kali dah hati ini didukacitakan and i don't want that to happen again!..there's too much cancellation of plans has been done!..gggggrrrrrrrrr

footnote: i love my syg busuk so mush2 :)

Thursday, July 29, 2010


Last Saturday was a date-day with my beloved ADIB busuk :D

i'm soo happy & excited, i managed to pull off a very pretty look for that day!..i wore a long, purple, paisley-printed summer dress (with pretty make-up n great hair day, of course) :D

on the date, we went to Mid Valley Shopping Mall! is one of my favorite shopping mall other than Sunway Pyramid...(aww, i miss Sunway soo much!.) :(

we planned on watching 'Despicable Me' bcoz i really love that cute little girl in the movie (Agnes that says... IT'S SO FLUFFY I'M GONNA DIE!!!) it's the 1st time i heard someone who wanna die just bcoz of something fluffy..just imagine if Agnes found ur little Persian kitten..i'm sure she'll choke the kitten to death.. :|

but sadly, we didn't had the time to watch movie cuz Mid Valley's GSC was packed with humans queuing for a ridiculously long line for the tickets..yeah, i know that now is the season of movie watching cuz great movies e.g 'The Sorcerer's Apprentice' & 'Despicable Me' are now showing, fresh from the oven...but the queues for tickets are just despicable as how 'Despicable Me' can be as much as despicable than that... (???does that makes sense,at all???) :D

with the movies plan dumped, we might as well try our very best to watch the movie on Wednesday (movie day!)...yeay,it's still on!. :D

when we were about to leave GSC, we saw an entrance to....................


Adib busuk were practically hopping in to the fair with a wide grin on his face...

it's soo nice to see him smile happily...all i wanna see is happiness in him, then i would be happy as well...

Adib busuk has been whining on buying Keroro Gunso model kit since....i don't remember

before, when i was still in Asasi, he kept on saying that he wanted to have a NERF Vulcan..(definition: it's a battery-operated toy gun that can shoot out nerf bullets one after another repeatedly)'s kinda cool but it's quite expensive $$$

now, when i came back to Shah Alam for degree, he told me he wants that Keroro thingy soo badly...everytime we go to a shopping mall, he would go to Jusco (toys section) or just any toy shop to find that cute green frog...but every attempt was to no avail :(

then he would make an expression just like a little boy wanting toys from his mother...soo cute but sorry sayang, there' nothing i could do to bring u Keroro bcoz it is quite hard to find

going back to our story at Mid Valley, we thought that the toy fair would definitely be selling a Keroro somewhere...thus, we came across a Gundam booth but the guy said that they don't have any Keroros at the moment...Adib was very upset and to mend his broken heart over Keroro, he bought a winged Gundam robot which cost him almost RM70, and it is quite cheap...kesian my syg busuk

BUT, the guy mentioned that they will bring in Keroro on the next day (Sunday) but Adib got a lot to do on that day, thus making going to Mid Valley a quite impossible task...again,kesian my syg busuk...

again with the BUT, i managed to go to Mid Valley on Sunday bcoz the Star Wars maniac (my cousin & uncle) wanted to see their idols from Star Wars (they were just Cosplayers) the moment of arrival, i rushed to the toy fair short-breathed and asked the guy for Keroro...

THANK GOD, they still got a stack left on they said, earlier in the morning they got 4-5 stacks of Keroros, but when i arrived around 1pm, there was just a stack left...that green frog is soo cool so i bought 2, one is Keroro on a flying saucer & another one would be the Keroro on top of a Keroro-like robot...sorry peeps, i'm not really a fan of these model kits so i don't really know what Gundam maniacs would call 'em hahaha :D

wrapped nicely (with lots of love in the making) just like a birthday present, i gave the Keroro to Adib yesterday (Monday)...he didn't know that i was buying him Keroro bcoz on that Sunday i told him that i was at The Mines...hahahah sorry tipu :P

at the moment when he saw the wrapped gift, he actually could guess what's inside but the best part is the surprise...and the surprised i made actually WORKED!..yeayy!..soo glad i did it, bcoz i could stand a chance to get the most precious thing that i can have from him; a look full with love, happiness, honesty, and thankfulness…I LOVE YOU, SAYANG~… (aww~ ngee hee..)

and now he already started working on his Keroro, eager to see the result…

ouh yeah, at the toy fair on that Saturday, he bought me a pair of Blythe contact lenses (Korean-made, 1 year use, blue, giving doll-like effect, gorgeous, almost RM50) thank u, sayang!..ngee~ sukee sgt2…

when I put it on, he was like ‘mengada-ngada’ a bit blushing2 looking at my eyes (jatuh cinta konon) hahaha my adib is soo busuk,eeeeeee :D

I just had a fever today…I think I got it thru an infection from somebody (kak atik demam on my stay at Kajang, and I sat next to her and she was like kiddingly ‘transfer’ her fever aura to me,aaaaaaaarrgghhh~!) hahaha

Maybe it is becoz of that but idk, cuz now is the fever season (far worse, there’s a lot of dengue fever cases around msia currently, erkk!) I hope I’ll be better soon,though…I couldn’t afford to get sick, I got a life K

Good news, my PTPTN loan has just been approved, but I have to get ready with all the documents & such to present to them, then only the money would be credited to my bank account (hopefully I can get the full loan = RM3K kaching2~!! $$$)

footnote: Idk why I tend to write such long post like this but it has been a while since the last time I updated it and… u go, bamm~!!.. :D

Thursday, July 22, 2010

B.Ed (Hons.) TESL @ part 1

1st of all, gelak dulu

tahniah & padan muka utk aku kerna bjaya dpt B.Ed TESL at UiTM's nothing, peeps...
it's just that i finally got what i wanted, degree in TESL at UiTM Shah Alam
but i remember that during Asasi year, i kept on complaining how UiTM can be 'uncool' at times (especially the college) but then i still prefer to be here..ngahaha hypocrite much :|

anyway, i'm here baby!..
well, it has been 3 weeks till i finally got the time to update this gorgeous pinkish blog of mine but still, it's still fresh news!.. (i guess) ngee~ *grin*

pretty much, everything still stays the same...but since the new Visi has taken his place, several changes has been made though..the new 'policy' (if that is what u want to call it) goes like this...:
"GIVE CHANGES A CHANCE" *while imagining how mr. Visi would say it* pretty cool,tho :D

one of 'em is that we, the current part 1 students would not have the chance to pick our own minor in the degree program...previously, the seniors were given the chance to choose either literature, counselling, or music as their degree minor but i guess that we can say goodbye to that has been said that there is no use to let us take other minors rather than literature because the other minors would not benefit us especially during practicum in part 7 later on...idk, some of my friends are quite frustrated bout it...maybe that would make 'em say "why, won't uols give chances to us rather than to give chances to changes????" :|

putting that anger n frustration aside, i'm the happiest girl alive~~~!!! hahaha :D
i have my syg busuk on my side, he loves me, he cares for me, and it seems like there has been some good changes in him....impressive, and progressive~...hehehehe :DD
sayang busuk goyang goyang tottt~...hahaha chumel sgt!.grrr geram *gigit2*
i've given him a teddy named 'Stinky' aaaaa~ chumel lg!...geramm lg~ hahaha XD
sayang2 stinky busuk :D

self-progress pulak.....
hurmm, shopaholic in me seems like it's never going away...
help me, please~ :(
in organization, wow~!..i've done it!..i've started to write at least something in my planner!.. :O
i got an expanding, neon pink file (labelled gteww~!) for notes and such...
it's nice and easy to live this way...why couldn't i think of it earlier??? uhh :|

i think it would just be nice for me to live my life to the fullest, not giving a damn to those who don't give a shit bout me (there are some, not to be mentioned or else i'm gonna have a bad mood), and learn to control myself from self-destructing habits and i'm going to try my best to lose weight..and that's my promise to myself (but hopefully i can absorb motivation around to help me get going with it) :DD

footnote: been breaking my diet for a week now....get back on track!!..

Friday, July 2, 2010


u can't have what u want from someone u love
not even the least of what u expected

u will hear he say, "i love u and i've never feel like this before for a girl"
and it actually doesn't seem like it

when u expect the nicest words from him when u did/say something special
all u get is all the silence in the world

when u ask ur loved one to climb on the top of the tallest mountain in the world, and scream out loud his love for u
he just doesn't feel like it

when he say stuff to make u feel special
in the end u will know that the 'most special' is somebody else's

when he say "i love u" but he told u to keep it on the hush
then u'll found out that he's actually embarrassed of having someone like u by his side

when ur love is locked deep inside ur heart,
u'll find that someone who's willing to open it back

then it will break into pieces...


footnote: don't expect much out of love...just grab whatever u can and when it's time to run, run away as fast as u can and never ever look back.

Thursday, July 1, 2010


i can't even explain how this 'ngoyehhh~!!!' expression looks like or how it is done hehe :D

but anyway it maybe somethg like this: u are very very tired but in d same time u're satisfied or maybe happy bout somethg...idk, i'm not really happy staying in blok 2 mawar though :( i'm in shah alam...again, n i'm glad :D
everythg has fallen into places, no more worries..but only for money $$$
i tried to apply for PTPTN loan but the website was having too much problem which makes us even more crazier than ever...super duper suckssss

putting that aside, i hate my room in mawar...
i got a double room (which means there is only 2 person per room) in a very quiet n sometimes creepy level because it is still half empty, and my room is at d empty side of the level...
to make it more miserable, the kolej fee for this room is a whooping rm420, double the price from the rooms that has 4beds..i don't even ask for a double room, n it's burning a big hole in my dry depressing :((

so, to ease my misery, i've decorated my room and organize everythg quite systematically...
n hopefully this current nice condition of my room will last till d end of the semester :D

another thing that makes my life here a lot more meaningful and happy, my honeybunny busuk got the lecturer job in, i'm dating a lecturer for God's sake..omaigosh hahhaha XD
but we cannot be seen together like a couple around sect.17 campus tho..
adib says: "it will look unethical for a lecturer to date a student...cover up line sudehh~..." :|
whatever, i'm just happy that u will be around, my dear :D

my room mate, khairunissa, a computer eccentric student from PJ...she's nice and still in d process of getting to know her...we got the whole semester babe,sure we will be just fine :D

what else ah to say??.ouh yeah, we the ex-asasians got an exemption from MDS (minggu destini siswa a.k.a orentasi), so another good news!.. XD

although i don't have much money now, but i'm glad that everythg goes well...i'm learning to economize, stop myself from shopping excessively, have simpler meals (in which i'm trying to lose weight rite now) and so on.....and i'm happy that i actually can do this economizing-life thingy :D

another thing before i close this post, i'm on a diet!..finally~ :|
to be more specific, i'm in the Kellogg's Special K - 2 Weeks Challenge diet...and this special K thingy is not that bad at all, it's delicious!.. :D

footnote: try to love ur life as it is and everything will be just fine... :)

Tuesday, June 22, 2010


wow..........waa waa wee~

today, i went for a medical check up with my sis
and i've done d x-ray, pee check and stuff
then it came to d worse part...

getting on the evil weighing scale~...

during 3 months of holiday,i gained 5kgs
and actually during d one-year of asasi, i gained 10kgs
right before asasi, my weight was actually quite ideal for my body but i was still not satisfied with now i realize what is actually the right body weight for me to look slimmer

okay, i think i'm already planning on something..
just hoping that during the degree, i got someone nice but 'aggressive' in making me lose weight..
ouh yeah, Sheril baby~ hahaha XD

wanna try Atkins too...maybe it will work on me

i need to lose 20kgs...
help me
please n tq (:

footnote: pathetic-much :|

Monday, June 21, 2010

my list of 'what-if..'s

what if...
i'll make every women feel beautiful n confident..

what if...
i'm a top CELEBRITY
i'll live my life as fabulous n glamorous as possible..

what if...
i'm a 5-star gourmet CHEF
i'll cook with a pinch of love in every dishes

what if...
i'm a school TEACHER
i'll spread the words of wisdom to young minds

what if...
i'll soothe the world with my music to dim all anger in the world

footnote: ambitions..

Sunday, June 20, 2010


ohmaigod...more good news after another :D
my cousin, NOR AZIMAH is going to UiTM Shah Alam too!!!..awhh awhhhh!!!
but she's going to be at Puncak Perdana, though...
but what d hell, not that far anyway... (not really :D)


anyways...there are tonnes of stuff to do, to fill in, and to buy!..
hopefully this time i won't forget what to buy and what's in my i-phone shopping list (like i always do lately,idk why...huhh very forgetful *btw i'm not THAT old to forget things easily....hurmm*)
so i better write 'em down in here so that everytime i go online, i'll remember *hopefully* :|

my SHOPPING LIST....brace urself! :
1. towel (big one and a small one)
2. toothbrush!. (seriously, the previous one was like junk)
3. OXY white cleansing foam (left mine at kuching..what a waste T_T)
4. try to get a new battery for ur lappy, godammit!. (optional, depending on budget)
5. a new bag, perhaps (like seriously, my previous bag for classes was like an antique, a pitiful one T_T)
6. more clothes for class....??? (hurmm to be considered, hoarder-much) :|
7. hairclips or hairstuff if that's what u want to call it :|
8. documents organizer (find d one with tonnes of pockets and divided sections)
9. stationaries case (again, d previous one was like *unmentionable*) :|
10. stationaries :D
11. mug, plate, spoon, fork & stuff
12. alarm clock (awh mann...even that won't wake me up) :|
13. mattress cover (optional)
14. new shoes, perhaps
15. a calendar, big one
16. posters of any hot guys (if there's any)
17. July issue of Seventeen :D
18. cellophane tapes
19. shower cap
20. any other worth included..

i think i can't really think of everything right now so i think it would be nice to stop at num. 20 :D

so..........let the shopping begin!..
ouh yeah...remember to get myself a med check-up...there's this sect in the form on body weight..omaigosh, i can't even look on 'em once i step on the scale...
maybe the figures shown later would be a nice slap-in-da-face (insert sound-effect) for me to get going on my biggest loser plans once i get my butt in shah alam.. :|

it's 4 in d morning now, n i just ate 4 humongous prawns (1 prawn for one hour after midnite)...well done, ita :|
i jumped off d bed without anything on my mind and just barged into the kitchen with a very involuntary action of getting a bowl and start heating up the's not that good but the thought of it would go bad in d morning just made me feel like eating 'em..arghh!.. *soo not a good excuse to eat, but it is true :|*
i don't even know what i'm thinking, maybe i just can't sleep...and eventually ended up updating my blog even when i know that this would be a very good time to go to bed already

"mr. sleepy sandman, can u please pour a big bucket of sleeping sand into both of my eyes so that i can sleep away?.."
or maybe i just need some music to drive me to sleep??
oh might turn out to be just like last night...i ended up singing along with it until i wasted almost 2 hours of my supposedly-bed-time...slept at 5.15 am, i guess.. :|
u don't even wanna know what was the time i woke up *sigh*

macam mana mau kurus ini macam???

good night, sweet dreams (:

footnote: uhh.....nothing :|

Friday, June 18, 2010

change me

i want to model...

but i don't have the guts
i'm not confident of myself...

i want to live life as it is...
and i want to change it a bit but i guess i never think of it that much

for now on, i would go and gather all the confidence and strength that i could grab with my two hands...or maybe some friends can come over to help me & be the extra pockets..

love is a lifetime for yourself, only you can discover (just me, 2010)

girls' problem

well,when a group of girls get together or maybe a girl just simply stand in front of the mirror,i'm pretty much sure know what actually is on their minds...
then they start to gussy up, pinching out blackheads, stroking their hair, wondering how they can make their nose n lips look different...

we can never be satisfied with what we already have...because boredom and the feeling of having something different is human nature (mersita sheila, 2010) :D

one good example is hair u notice that we Asians are crazy in getting a different hair color?.some of us want to be a brunette, blondie n me myself prefer to get my hair done in copper or auburn (ngee~ :D )
and let's observe on d people who are naturally gifted with these hair colors...they wanted a darker hair color,black is better!.(as they say...)

so here we can see that d theory is proven true, we can never be satisfied on what we have..we always want something new for ourselves,and manufacturers, inventors will drain their brains out thinking on how to satisfy our discontentment...bcoz only on beauty, they know that women are willing to spend most of their money just to look different (good profit,aite??.)

me myself is an example...i want to look different (but i think there is nothing wrong in my face so plastic surgery is outta my list)..i just want to make my face smoother, acne-free, for my body; blemish-free, hot figure, and tut tutt (secret, oops..ngee~)

once a friend asked me, "how much do u spend on ur make-ups and beauty stuffs?."
then i took out d calculator, start to count on roughly the stuff in my makeup pouch n such...and the result; i think there are more than rm500 worth make-up,in just one pouch!. (i got several, actually.. :| )

not to mention all the clothes that i have in my bag n closet...fuhh, i admit it that i'm quite a hoarder but it is under control.. (for now..hurmm)
i can't help but to shop whenever i got d money...almost every month, i would go shopping at least once...and normally people will buy at least 1 outfit a month...but the stuff that i bought in a month is equivalent to 1 outfit per week (gulp!.)
thankfully now i'm starting to get a grip on myself and control my urge to shop...i always think that i already got so many and i don't need another one (but when it is too cute and look too good on me,i just can't help it)..i thought that maybe i don't have to spend my money on shoes,so that's why i got a major cluster in my closet..
i think another reason why i always think i need this and that is buying magazine every month..i read Seventeen since June 2008 until's typical of a magazine to show the latest trends in market right now and that's what makes me say "ouh i want that, that's super cute!"..
then i'll spend the rest of the days just thinking about what i saw in the magazine and whenever i hit the mall,i'll find one just like that.. (ughh,i really need help :| )

insecurities drive people crazy...hell crazy!.
and the only way to solve this problem is to think on the real purpose in spending ur money and always think less is'll keep u simple and beautiful and secure,inside out...

ouh yeah...think of this; 'i'm not that rich,so i better spend my money on something wayy better than this'...or
'i better work hard on my studies...then i'll get a good job, make big money every end of the month, then i can buy whatever i want''s good motivation, it's way better to spend the money that u earn urself rather than spending ur parent's bucks :D

footnote: money is always good.. $$$kaching2$$$


there are tonnes of stuffs that i want to buy...
and every morning when i wake up,i wish that someone kind or just a very good luck would give me a bunch of money and right then,i would spend it in just a day..

what would a girl like me spend the money for??.here are some:
1. new bag(s)
2. mobile phone
3. hopefully i'll find shoes in my size :|
4. tops, bottoms, accessories
5. get myself a slimming program package :D
6. go on a holiday
7. blah blah blahh~..(i get d feeling that d list would be never-ending)

let's this 3months of holiday,i've bought some stuff
one of them that i am very glad n happy that i bought it is a short dress(which i think i saw selling online)
i think i want to wear it for my first date with adib busuk after 3months of no date..hehe

now money gets me really thinking...i got myself into the degree program in UiTM, n it's going to be in shah alam,i'm pretty sure
now would be a good time for me to think on getting a PTPTN loan (which kinda sucks bcoz i really need to have a job right after finishing my degree to pay 'em back)..ughhh T_T

but all i have to do is EXCEL...i heard that if u get really god results,u don't have to pay for d loan afterwards..yeayy!..but it is hard work,ya know.. T_T

but anyway,i can't wait to get myself back to selangor d.e...i get to meet friends,my busuk, SHOP :D, have fun and have my college life back (although it's not that fun but hey,at least i'll get something to do rather than just laying around alone at home and gain major weight by crunching on snacks n food all d time :| ) haha...
yes i gained weight,major weight...until getting into my jeans on feels like choking me T_T
i've started imagining plans on losing weight when i get back to shah alam...yes yes i know i planned on losing weight during d holidays (which d 3months holiday is already reaching the end), but it is IMPOSSIBLE to lose weight in the holiday environment...i was thinking,getting back to shah alam would at least get me moving here n there without much temptation to eat this and that (which can be applied on plans to control my budget) & i can plan my schedule easily with great,easy-to-get transportation in shah alam (so i can get to d tasik to jog n stuff) :D

and yeay!..i am happy and content...for now
ngee~ :D

footnote: i'll be missing miri,though...although there's nothing much here...i'll be better in shah alam, perhaps... :)